The deepest pain the greatest healing

Genesis 41:55-57,42:5-7,17-24

When the whole country of Egypt began to feel the famine, the people cried out to Pharaoh for bread. But Pharaoh told all the Egyptians, ‘Go to Joseph and do what he tells you.’ There was famine all over the world. Then Joseph opened all the granaries and sold grain to the Egyptians. The famine grew worse in the land of Egypt. People came to Egypt from all over the world to buy grain from Joseph, for the famine had grown severe throughout the world.

Israel’s sons with others making the same journey went to buy grain, for there was famine in the land of Canaan. It was Joseph, as the man in authority over the country, who sold the grain to all comers. So Joseph’s brothers went and bowed down before him, their faces touching the ground. When Joseph saw his brothers he recognised them. But he did not make himself known to them, and he spoke harshly to them. Then he kept them all in custody for three days.
On the third day Joseph said to them, ‘Do this and you shall keep your lives, for I am a man who fears God. If you are honest men let one of your brothers be kept in the place of your detention; as for you, go and take grain to relieve the famine of your families. You shall bring me your youngest brother; this way your words will be proved true, and you will not have to die!’ This they did. They said to one another, ‘Truly we are being called to account for our brother. We saw his misery of soul when he begged our mercy, but we did not listen to him and now this misery has come home to us.’ Reuben answered them, ‘Did I not tell you not to wrong the boy? But you did not listen, and now we are brought to account for his blood.’ They did not know that Joseph understood, because there was an interpreter between them. He left them and wept.

Scripture: The words in the scripture that spoke to me today are

‘Do this and you shall keep your lives, for I am a man who fears God.
He left them and wept.

Observation: What is Jesus saying personally to me today

The betrayal from Josephs brothers is the deepest of pains, betrayed by family, perhaps there is no greater pain. Joseph acts in accordance with God, with justice and a hard fairness but it doesn’t stop him from experiencing the emotions of pain and suffering. There is a process happening before our eyes in the scripture and it is the beginning of the greatest healing. It is almost unbearably difficult for the brothers and especially for Joseph. There is guilt, shame, betrayal, brokenness, anger and suffering for all the parties, The point for me is that stuff like this will happen but the opportunity to heal through Gods love is the only way forward as difficult as it might be.

Thank you for speaking to me Jesus

Application: How do I respond to what Jesus is saying to me today, right now what do I do?

I have a role to play in healing both for myself and for others around me. Sometimes it is hard to separate my emotions from what God wants me to do and the emotions take full control. Balancing the desire for justice with the loving, forgiving, merciful manner in which God wants me to respond is so hard. Today I own my emotions but I need to put someone else first. It is a matter of equity, being that the needs of others are sometimes a priority over my own. I know that I am working on my stuff and that God is working in everything. At the moment I need to be supportive, a good listener, an enabler of healing through allowing God to work through me. Hard to do but entirely blessed. Tonight I invite the Holy spirit to be in the greatest of healing.

Prayer:

Lord,
may your love work through me as I surrender to your desire.
I invite you in to this place where it is only through you that it can truly happen.
I am not capable of doing this without you, use me as you will.
I place myself at your mercy.
Amen