Paralyzed by sin

Matthew 9:1-8

Jesus got in the boat, crossed the water and came to his own town. Then some people appeared, bringing him a paralytic stretched out on a bed. Seeing their faith, Jesus said to the paralytic, ‘Courage, my child, your sins are forgiven.’

And at this some scribes said to themselves, ‘This man is blaspheming.’ Knowing what was in their minds Jesus said, ‘Why do you have such wicked thoughts in your hearts? Now, which of these is easier to say, “Your sins are forgiven,” or to say, “Get up and walk”? But to prove to you that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins,’ – he said to the paralytic – ‘get up, and pick up your bed and go off home.’ And the man got up and went home. A feeling of awe came over the crowd when they saw this, and they praised God for giving such power to men.

Scripture: The words in the scripture that spoke to me today are

a paralytic stretched out on a bed. Seeing their faith, Jesus said to the paralytic, ‘Courage, my child, your sins are forgiven.

Observation: What is Jesus saying personally to me today – paralyzed by sin

I see a relationship between an inability to move and the forgiveness that Jesus provides. Its the first thing that Jesus says, have courage your sins are forgiven, is the heart of it all? Are we paralyzed both physically and spiritually because of our sins and the shame and guilt that is carried as a result? As soon as the man accepts the forgiveness, Jesus asks him to pick up his bed and walk. He accepts it, then has to carry what was once both a blessing and a source of resentment being his bed. Acceptance, forgiveness of ourselves and others and then the we carry those things with us to assist others in case they need our support. You cant forget your sins, but they can become a source of grace and blessings depending on how we see and treat them.

Thank you for speaking to me Jesus

Application: How do I respond to what Jesus is saying to me today, right now what do I do?

I have lost a bit of my joy and the reading today prompts me to think about how I have sinned and what it might be doing in robbing me of the peace and joy that Jesus offers me.  It doesn’t take me long to recognize the anger, resentment and revenge that is sitting in my heart. I have become solemn, quiet and withdrawn and paralyzed. I need to articulate my emotions, thoughts and sin to ready myself for forgiveness. This is going to be hard because I want to hurt someone for what they have done to one of my children. I find it easier to forgive a wrong against myself rather than a wrong against my family. I need to pray for forgiveness and the grace to do so. Even harder, I need to pray for both the victim and the perpetrator.

Prayer:

Lord,
you ask almost the impossible from me today.
I cannot do this by my own will, its just not possible.
Help me to say the words, to start the process as I am paralyzed.
Forgive me Jesus, forgive them please.
Amen